this is why..

I need to get this off my chest...

I just (finally) transferred my Evierobbie Photography event portfolio from Myspace to Facebook. It's a task I had been dreading for a long time, but the events portion is complete.

In going back through my photos of all the events I have attended, all the celebrities I have shot, all the business cards I have distributed, and all the time I have put into building my company...I remembered again THIS is why I work hard.

These are visual representations of why I have and will forever bust my ass for a goal. I feel that nothing is impossible. But if you want it, you must put in the time, energy, and dedication to get it.

I don't care if your goal is going for a run, playing with your child, getting a flight home for the summer, or creating an empire...you must attack that task like there is no other alternative. I don't live my life according to 'ifs'.

Setting goals, obtaining them, and setting news one is what makes me feel alive. Being able to create my own entities from nothing..just hard work, is like magic. I am not the type to go party all the time and drink into oblivion. Yes, I have had it on occasion, but I don't like doing things like that because it blurs my focus. I don't have time for that.

I know we could go tomorrow. That is why I have always and will forever, do whatever is necessary to make sure I am living my life, striving for my dreams. For it is my dreams that fuel my life, and my happiness. Hard work is a side effect to the medicine of success. I love a challenge. I love to conquer it. My happiness lies in my freedom to manifest my dreams.

Now that...I will drink to.

Enjoy the catalogue...

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1 week left to workout plan...

I fell off the boat this week, in regards to the workout plan. Been working out, but you can tell when you are really going in, and when you aren't. At least I got off my ass and did something. I can be proud of that.

The culprit this week? Sugar.
It is my culinary downfall in life. When I crave it, I crave it hard.
This week was one of them.

In all, I want to get in on these workouts again. Rain season or not I am trying to get as much running in as possible before I return to NYC. I have 1 week left to this workout plan, and 2 weeks left before I touch ground in NY. It's a beautiful feeling.

Physical changes:

I dropped about 3 pounds since the last time I posted a picture. Before and after below, but I have definitely reached a plateau. What is happening now, is my weight has stabilized at around 154 but my body is morphing. Thighs are smaller, face is more oval, abs are the best I have EVER seen them in life, and my actual waist is getting smaller.

Also, I have had one annoying roll in the back area that is finally disappearing.
Running is great for my all over, but when I get to NY and have the free reign of my gym, and pilates equipment at home, I am definitely targeting specific areas more with resistance training/weights. I can't do that here, so I must take advantage there.

Michael, Stevie, my father...

Michael Jackson`s death hit me late, as expected. Being so far removed from the US, particularly the gatherings in New York City, I found myself in a state of diluted belief. I knew he was gone, but I didn`t feel it...until today.

I wore all black in rememberence of him and decided to start my mornig watching what I could of the Staples Center Memorial on msnbc.com. That is when it hit. To see the casket, to see his family, friends, and fans. I believe that is how he would have wanted it.

It is undeniable that many have joined, and rode the MJ bandwagon over the last week. I can`t blame you. I truly can`t. He was simply the greatest entertainer that ever lived. Period.

I wanted to take a moment to finally filter out the blog explaining why I mourn.

For those closest to either me, or my writing, they may have known through the years that my father and I have not always had the best of relationships. He would also admit that in my previous years that along with love I harbored a huge amount of resentment and anger towards him. Something only I had the ability to let go and forgive. Something I made the choice to about a year ago. I am 25. For nearly 24 years I fought to hold onto every negative aspect of him that I could. Part of growing up is letting go. Luckily, I can say that I did and, though there are still mountains to be moved, we are closer now that possibly ever before.

With that, I never told him this, but there are two entertainers that I hear that remind me of my father. They bring back positive childhood memories that I had of being `daddy`s little girl` if even for a breif moment. Those two entertainers are Michael Jackson and Stevie Wonder. They always have been.

As an adolescent , I note finding so much joy in their music and it ALWAYS making me think of my father and smile. Something that for years, the actual man himself could not do. For these reasons I mourn. One of the men that maybe inadvertently helped me rebuild a relationship with my father, mentally if no way else, is now gone. Thank you Michael. Thank you for the memories that are attached to your music.
Thank you for being one of the biggest installations in my fathers massive vinyl collection. Thank you for terrifying me with Thriller, at my Aunt Sharon`s old apartment. Thank you for your help. Thank you for being the best.

As time would have it, this morning I only had a limited time to watch the beginning of the ceremony before I headed out to work. I only had enough time to get through the beginning, and conclude at the end of Stevie`s performance. I found it fitting.

(tears.)

aperture and focus...

In photography, the camera contains many functions. Two of the most frequent functions used, to dictate how the picture turns out, are the aperture and focus... Follow me on this one.


I am realizing that in people, all around the word, having the tenacity to go in on your dreams is rare. Period. Living in New York, around hustlers, it's easy to think everyone is chasing after something. It's true and false. Everyone wants something, but are they willing to put in the work to get it? I mean REALLY put in the work...I ask.

In the pictures of your goals, how clear is your focus?

Is it crystal clear, where you can taste the satisfaction in this moment? Or is it fuzzy and resembling an old school Polaroid? Yes, vintage photos are cool every once in awhile. But we are living in a Digital SLR world homie. It's time to upgrade. You can't acquire SLR dreams with Polaroid focus. It doesn't happen that way.

On a small scale, my main goal for the last few months was acquiring the funds to get a flight home. Anyone who knows my company knows that you get screwed financially in the forefront, but you have a nice package to export with on the tail end.

Enter tunnel vision...three other jobs. That's what it took for me to go in on my goal. Do I like working this hard? No. Do I make it my business to put in whatever work is necessary to obtain my goals? Always.

Walking over Bandai bridge with a friend, I was sprung with a question I am starting to hear more often out here. "How do you stay so focused?"
The more people learn about me, the more I hear this. It was a hard question to answer, but I just said "I don't understand 'No.' I do whatever has to be done to get what I want. The first step to get what you want is to be clear on what it is you want." We continued walking...

I am finding that people get stuck in that first phase. You have to constantly set goals, accomplish them, and set new ones. That is how you prosper. All the while keep your main (HUGE) goal in mind. When your overall picture is in focus, then the smaller decisions you make become easier. You just go with whatever gets you to the bigger picture faster.

Aperture is the hole opening in the camera that dictates how much light comes in during a shot. This gives the photo its contrast, highlights, shadows, and brilliance.

Aperture is your light...your drive, your passion. How much light are you giving your goals? Are you just talking about them or are you going after them? Are you telling your friends "Nah, chill. I can't go out today because I have to do ___." Do you have a vision board, or a vision list? Have you researched possible jobs or mentors in the field you want? Have you started building your portfolio? Whatever it takes have you started? I am a firm believer that it all starts with a thought, then a plan, then an action. A dream is useless if you don't act upon it.

"If you are always ready, then you ain't got to get ready." - Will Smith

please believe it.......



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